KISS ME - HAPPINESS

Kiss me
hajimete kisu shita
ano fuyu wo wasurenai
hokani wa nanimo iranai yo
winter night

itsumademo kono mune ni
so sweet

haku iki ga shiroi ne
It's so cold, but so hot
te wo tsunageru kara
watashi dake miteite
when the night's falling down
nee onegai

kimi to deatte
shitta yasashii itami
taisetsuna koto wa itsumo
umaku tsutaerarenai

Kiss me
hajimete kisu shita
ano fuyu wo wasurenai
furueru futari terashiteta moonlight
mou modorenai no kana
the very first day
ima ja nido to
Please kiss me
kanau nara kimi ni
mou ichido aitakute
hokani wa nanimo iranai yo
winter night
itsumademo kono mune ni
so sweet

orion za kagayaku
It's so bright, but so sad
kimi dake ga inai
hitori kiri miageru
To the sky in the night
samishi sugiru

kimi to hanarete
hajimete kidzuita koto
hontouni kanashii toki wa
namida wa denainda ne

Kiss me
hirogaru yozora wa
tookute tsunagatteru
dokoka de kimi mo miteru kamo
Milky Way
mada oboeteiru yo ne
the very first kiss
ima mo zutto
Please kiss me
jibun no kotoba de
kono kimochi tsutaetai
ano koro wa mada ienakatta
"I love you"
itsumademo wasurenai
your touch

moshi kore kara dareka wo
suki ni natte
otona no kaidan wo
noboru toshite mo

Kiss me
Kiss me
hajimete kisu shita
ano fuyu wo wasurenai
furueru futari terashiteta moonlight
mou modorenai no kana
the very first day
ima ja nido to
Please kiss me
kanau nara kimi ni
mou ichido aitakute
hokani wa nanimo iranai yo
winter night
itsumademo kono mune ni
so sweet
itsumademo ano fuyu wa
forever

Translation

Kiss me
I won't forget
The winter we first kissed
I don't wany anything else
But that winter night
It's always in my heart, so sweet

Our breath is turning white
It's so cold, but so hot
Because we're holding hands
Look only at me
When the night's falling down
Please?

Meeting you, the gentle pain I felt
I could never properly explain These precious things

Kiss me
I won't forget
The first winter we kissed
The two of us shaking
The bright moonlight
I wonder if we can go back to
The very first day
If we can't now, then once more
Please kiss me
If my wish can be granted
I want to see you again
I don't wany anything else
But that winter night
It's always in my heart, so sweet
Orion shines
It's so bright, but so sad
You are not here
Looking up alone
To the sky in the night
Is too lonely

When we parted
The first thing I realised was
When you are truly sad
The tears don't come

Kiss me
The vast night sky is connected
To far away places
Maybe somewhere you're looking
At the Milky Way
I still remember
The very first kiss
Now and forever
Please kiss me
In my own words
I want to tell you how I feel
At that time I still
Couldn't say "I love you"
I will never forget your touch

If from now,
You find someone else
Even when I've grown
Into an adult

Kiss me
Kiss me
I won't forget
The first winter we kissed
The two of us shaking
The bright moonlight
I wonder if we can go back to
The very first day
If we can't now, then once more
Please kiss me
If my wish can be granted
I want to see you again
I don't wany anything else
But that winter night
It's always in my heart, so sweet
That winter will last forever

It's raining seed ch. 3

It was Sunday morning, He was just back from Kyo’s house to his luxurious apartement. Fortunately, it was his day off, he wanted to spend  his whole day doing nothing, maybe watch some good movies and sleeping. But first, he wanted to take a good shower, and maybe jerk off thinking about Kyosuke, lately he often fantasy-ing that raven haired boy, he knew he was not teenager anymore, he desperately did not want to do that again, but his body was betrayed him. So, he ended up do that again and again. 

He was in the middle of watching some good action movies, when his phone rang, It was his friend Keisuke Minami, Keisuke asked if he wanted to hangout this evening, Watanabe then said yes, he then remembered that he promised to call Kyosuke, he did call him, more than 5 times though, but there’s no answer, so, he texted him instead, he wants Kyosuke to go with him to hangout with Keisuke and his other friends. But why didn’t he call or text him back? He sighed, is he okay? He asked himself.

He remembered the first time he met Kyosuke, It was on stage play Tenimyu, he was so young, he barely 16 that time, he played as Eiji Kikumaru and that was not even the main role, the main role played by himself as Tezuka Kunimitsu, and all of the casts often called him buchou (leader), not only because of the role that he played, but also he was the oldest among them. Eiji character is energic and easygoing same with Kyosuke character himself, so that character really suit him after all. He was such naive boy in this industry, so Watanabe being the leader and senior, took responsibility againts the junior, he felt like he was a big brother to Kyosuke that time, but a year later, when they met again in Takumi kun series, he felt like big brother no more. Because he often got wet dream about Kyosuke, it was like he had no girlfriend that time, he had, but then they’re broke up, Watanabe did not feel ok with women, they are nagging. Watanabe became more confident,  that he knew that Kyosuke was obsessing him. So, he took that chance to approached him. and voila, they are lover until now, and only few of his friends knew about their relationship, they are Takiguchi Yukihiro, Baba Ryoma, and Kanesaki Kentaro. The three often tease about the two. 

The knock on his apartement door interupted his own thought, he was so surprised that he found Kyo standing at his door,  hung his head.

“Mao, you okay? What are you doing here?” asked Watanabe.

Kyo didnt answer, so Watanabe let him in. 

Then as usual, Kyo sat on his favorite spot on his favorite chair, looking outside of the opened window. The wind outside blew his face and the sun ray irradiated his pale face. The whole scene was so breathtaking, Watanabe can’t take his eyes off of him.

“Want something to drink?” Watanabe asked.

“Nu uh.. just sit here please...” pleaded Kyosuke, “there’s something I wanna talk about”.

Watanabe slowly approached Kyosuke and then sit beside him, so close, their thigh bumped. 

“What is it?” asked Watanabe while rubbed Kyo’s back. 

“I think we shouldn’t see each other anymore” said Kyosuke softly.

“What? Are you kidding? what are you talking about?” Watanabe said.

“I mean it, Dai-chan” said Kyosuke sadly.

“Wait.. it’s all because your brother, right?” said Watanabe diasapprovingly.

“Not at all, Dai-chan, it is nothing with aniki” Kyosuke hung his head and keep talking and talking about how bad their relationship and it can destroys their carrer of theirs. 

Something changed inside Watanabe, something snapped, he didnt like Kyosuke talk like that. He didnt listen Kyosuke, he just staring at him babling. And then suddenly he gripped Kyosuke shoulders tightly. Kyosuke surprised and yelled, “what are you doing?? It hurts.. ” 

“Shut up!” said Watanabe, “I don’t like it if u talk like that!” his eyes was so dark Kyosuke didn’t recognize him, it felt like it was not Watanabe’s.

“Get off, I wanna go home!” said Kyosuke

Watanabe saw the fear in Kyosuke eyes, and he didnt believe himself that he like it. The way he struggled to free from his strong grip, it was turned him on a little bit, and then Watanabe stare at Kyosuke slender neck, he wanted to choke him badly, he didnt listen Kyosuke Plead, Instead he pinned Kyosuke to the nearest wall, and then choke him with his own hands, Kyosuke tried to freed himself from his grip, but he just cant, his vision blur, he started losing the air, his eyes widened and tears leaking at the corner of his eyelids. Kyosuke clawed at Watanabe’s hands and face and after awhile finally Watanabe freed him. Kyosuke doubled over, was coughing and rubbed his sore neck and Watanabe just stood there with vacant stare.

He didnt want to argue any further with Watanabe, so he rose to his own feet and started running and seeking for the door, but unfortunately, the door is locked.  

“Let me out!” screamed Kyosuke histerically.

He yelled continously until his voice trembled. And then his breath ragged, he felt his surounding spinning, then he fainted.

Cerita macam apa ini? Di chapter ini saya bermaksud membuatnya agak fluff, tapi entah apa yg terjadi hingga saya membuatnya agak violence.... 

Yang penting apdet kaka... :v

Its Raining seeds : Chapter 2 :v

This fic dedicated to my friend who ask me to continue this pervert fic :v

Yosh! Langsung ajah...:*

The rain had stopped,  the humidity of the air filled Kyosuke’s room, It was already 11.00 pm. Watanabe stirred from his sleeping, only to find that Kyosuke curled up besides him, he’s still sleeping though, the way his nose twitched and his lips slightly open, then his eyeballs moved behind those eyelids, maybe he is dreaming, Watanabe thought.

He looked cute when he is sleeping, he caressed Kyo’s cheek and his eyes fluttered open.

“Sorry... didn’t mean to wake you” Watanabe whispered.

“What time is it?” Kyo rubbed his eyes.

Watanabe glanced a clock on the table beside the bed.

“It’s eleven” answered Watanabe. “Do you want me to leave?”

“Of course not Daichan, please stay” Kyosuke demanded.

Watanabe sighed, and kiss his eyes tenderly. Kyosuke only smiles and  snuggled up further Watanabe broad chest, he was like a cat but he didn’t purred of course, human can not purred, literally.

Then Watanabe rubbed his back, and then his lower back...

“Does that hurt?” Watanabe asked simpatically.

“Eh...?”

“Here” he rubbed Kyo’s lower back a little bit hard.

“Nope.. nope at all..” answered Kyo shyly.

“Oh, really? Then wait until tommorow” said Watanabe with unreadable expression in his voice.

“What do you mean, Daichan?” asked Kyosuke curiously.

“iee.. nandemonai, we better get sleep, no talking anymore” his voice was in command mode, that mean he was serious, with that he kissed Kyo’s temple and both of them fallen into deep slumber.

...

Meanwhile in his room, Ryosuke felt dejected, he was so shocked and sad that his little brother  didn’t opened up to him, didn’t tell him about his sexuality, they used to shared everythings, and he felt dissapointed too that he was failed being a good brother. Should I tell mom and dad about that, Ryo thought.

He was so confused, an hour ago his parents rang him that they won’t go home because of the rain, so they will stay in a motel. That means he was trapped in his house with two morons who fucks each others brains out, and made filthy noises and he was so helpless and could not sleep a blink, thank god those noises and the rain had stopped now. But still, he could not sleep. He was still wearing the earphone though. He was playing music and of course the volume reached to the maximal level in order to avoid the filthy noises. Oh poor Ryosuke... He took off the earphone, because his ears is all sore now. 

...

It was around 5 a.m. Watanabe already woke up, he then awared that he, himself was not in his own room, then he remembered last night ‘activity’ with Kyosuke though, he smiles goofily, but he didn’t wanna go any further because he didn’t want ‘something’ awakened by his own thought, instead he kissed Kyo’s head, his hair smell like a baby shampoo, he like it, though. but Kyo didn’t budge. he knows that he was just pretended sleeping, Watanabe then started to kiss his nose and Kyosuke giggled, “Daichan, dame!” Kyosuke opened his eyes and smiles widely, showing his rabbit looklike teeth.

 “Good morning, Mao” Watanabe baritone voice greeted him.

“Good morning, Daichan” he answered happily.

“You feel OK?”

“Yeah...”

“Oh really?” Watanabe asked concerned.

“Yeah, I am” he said reassuringly.

And then Watanabe gazing intently at Kyo, seeking some signs that maybe he was lying, but he found nothing, he just found two big beautiful eyes staring back at him, but then Kyo lowering his gaze, and his cheeks turned pinkish. Watanabe thought, why this boy was so shy easily, but he was cute being like that though, he can’t help himself, so he kissed his cheek lovingly.

“I better get going, before someone wakes and notice me,” he said suddenly.

Quickly, Watanabe dressed himself. Kyo just silent, the raven haired boy was too tired and still sleepy. He seemed like didn’t care at all.

“Jaa.. I’ll call you later” He pecked Kyo’s lips and left.

...

It was 7.30 a.m Kyo woke up, his throat was so dry, he wanted to drink badly, felt like he didn’t drink in ages. When he was going to stand from the bed, a grimace appeared on his pale face, suddenly a shot of pain on his lower back killed him, his ass was sore, he was going to cry really, but then he regained his composure and gripped on the table near the bed. “Ittai..Darn you, Daichan” he murmured. I can do this, he motivated himself, after he struggled to wear his clothes, he managed into the kitchen, walking funnyly, he was surprised that his brother was there too.

“Ohayou, aniki..” greeted Kyosuke, Ryosuke remained silent, he seemed mad at him. The both of them remained silent for several minutes. And Ryosuke suddenly cutted the awkward silent. “So, the gossip out there was true, right?”

“I..I- aniki, d-dont tell mom and dad, please..” he pleaded, about to cry.

“oh come on, Mao.. You are just turned 18, for god sake, please... wake up!” Ryosuke sigh “he is what? 30 right? Dont you know that he was just abusing you? He is a pedhopile!” Ryosuke was exploded.

“and what about last night, huh? You even didn’t locked the door, what if mom or dad walk in when you were being screwed like that? Dont you care about their feeling? We are still living under their roof, you know?”

Mao just looked the floor and weeping like a baby, “You are lucky they aren’t home yet, and btw look at you, you can’t even walk properly” Ryosuke keep lecturing him.

“W-what should I do..?” Mao said, more like spoke to himself.

“Look, Mao, I dont wanna know, but by tomorrow, you have to break up with him” Ryosuke gave him an option. “Or I’ll tell them the truth” with that he give him a glass of water,”here drink it, I care about you, Mao...” and then Ryosuke left the kitchen.

The reality hit him like a ton of bricks. He was so confused and sad, after he took a shower he curled up on his bed, that's when his parents home. 

Ok, tenang saja, ini akan berlanjut...  (semoga)

:*

my first amburegul fanfic :v

Title       : Its Raining Seed
Pairing  : Watanabe Daisuke/Kyosuke Hamao
Rating   : Nc-17

Disclaimer  : This is my first Daimao fanfic, Do not read this if you are not into boyslove fic trololol

dont be grammar nazi too! :v

fic ini sebenernya pwp yang nanggung lolz :3

dont read I warn you!

That evening, the rain fell down heavily and the thunder rumbled furiously, the sky was totally dark it seemed already in the middle of night. But, then it was barely 7 in the evening.

Kyo, the slender teenager just cocooned  in his favorite blanket in his bed, wide awake. He was home alone, since their parents had gone to a party a half hour ago. They didnt back  yet, maybe because the rain. And his big brother had just gone to his friend house several minutes ago. The raven haired boy felt like he was dying when it comes to weather like this, due to his body weight. He had only 2 percentage of body fat, he is such skinny boy. Recently, he was desperately gain weight, eventhough he already ate a lot, he is skinny still.

His phone on the table beeped, he felt like he didnt want to touch that rectangle-ish thing, he felt like he didnt wanna move from his comfy spot, especially when Roku is all cuddle up on his tummy, that little bundle of fur purred cutely when mao petting its head, but his phone beeped continously and annoyingly. He gave up, he then picked up his phone, then look up on the screen, its Watanabe calling.

“moshi moshii..”

“Mao- let me in please- its freezing out here” , the caller spoke impatiently.

“Daichan.. just wait a minute-“ he then hung up.

The 18 years old boy then ran up to open the front door, he smiled when a tall and manly figure appeared towering in front of him.

“what took you so long..?” watanabe demanded, seemed little bit annoyed.

“gomen ne.. come in Daichan...”  answered Kyo submissively.

Fuck. Kyo spoke to himself in his mind, he always act like this toward this man, his so called “friend”, Daisuke Watanabe. Plus he didnt expected a guest, especially in the middle of rain like this.

“Oii.. the heck Mao? Close the door or what? Its cold y’know?” said Watanabe.

That shook Mao consiousness from his thinking, then he closed the door.

“whats up Daichan? Why all of sudden you come here?” asked Kyo.

“I already texted you five times, right?” answered Watanabe.

Kyo’s eyes widened, “Is that so?” he then remembered he still gripped his phone, and he look at it, there was an envelope icon appear on his phone, it means that he already received the texts “ahhh.. i havent read it yet.. sorry Daichan, have a seat please..”

“where’s your family? Seemed bit quiet here?” Watanabe asked.

“mom and dad went to a party, and my brother went to his friend house” he said boringly.

“so, you home alone then? Is that ok if we go to your room instead?” he said mischievously.

“ok then, I was laying in my bed when you called anyway...” Kyo said and bit his lip. They both then went to Kyo’s room.

-Although they both had far ages different, its 9 years apart, their chemistry is great in their last project, they became know each other really well too outside the scene. it lead to their dirty little secret kind of relationship-

Several minutes later their clothes was scattered on the floor, Kyo was moaning and Watanabe groaned on top of him, Watanabe was slamming into Kyo’s skinny body while Kyo writhed and squirmed under him, he can feel Watanabe huge member twitched and moved uncontrollably inside him, he moved fastered and quickened, Kyo cant take it anymore. But they both didnt want their moment come to an end.

“uh-Daichan slow down please-” Kyo begged while gripped on the messed up bedsheet. His cheeks were red and flushed and his eyes were glassy, Watanabe really likes Kyo in stated like that. He drank that moment greedily.

Watanabe didnt budge he keep doing that continously. Kyo was whimpering like a mess when Watanabe heard the front door opened. Aware of that situation he abruptly pulled out of Kyo, Kyo yelped because of that sudden action.

It was Ryosuke, Kyo’s brother just back from his friend house. He heard Kyo voice seemed like he was crying “Mao are you okay?” Ryosuke said outside his room. He felt worry so he suddenly opened Kyo’s bedroom door without knock first, “What the-....” Ryosuke was so shocked, he couldnt believe what he was witnessing, he saw his little brother and Watanabe, that actor, and both of them didnt wear anything yada yada..., time seemed stop, part of him want to angry, want to throw up, want to wiped their stupid expression off of their faces. That moment was so awkward, so Ryo just slammed shut the door and left.

“Mao what was that? You said he wasnt home, right?” Watanabe demanded.

“uh, he was, Dai chan, I swear-I”

“Shut up-, “ Watanabe cut him. “Wanna finish?”

And then Kyo cheeks blushed.



End.

Lipstick Red A

hae gaess... hari ini saya mau ngobrolin lipstick Red-A nihh (^_^)

well.. beberapa hari yang lalu saya baru saja beli lipstick ini, melihat keberadaannya, dalam hati saya bicara, kok putih begitu.. sederhana banget ya... lalu saya melihat harganya yg cuma 12 ribu, dan dalam hati pula saya menginsafinya :v

maap ngeblurr vroh potonyah

lipstick ini cocok banget bagi kamuh kaum beginner dalam hal per lipstick kan :v

Lipstick Red A 608 ini warnanya nudes, bisa dipake kemanapun dan dimanapun di segala kesempatan, saya suka pake ini sehari-hari, suka lipstick ini karena warnanya yang soft, teksturnya emang creamy, tapi enggak lebay lah... dan kalau diliat secara seksama emang ada glitter nya, tapi juga engga lebay...

Lipstick 613 ini warnanya spicy brown,  lipstick Red A bertahan 3 sampai 4 jam, mudah hilang lah, itu kalau kita minum dan makan, yang pasti jangan di jilat-jilat juga biar ga cepet hilang, atau kalo engga, kita emang harus sering2 touch up.

the last one is Coffebrandy warnanya spt itu... itu favorit saya, so kesimpulannya Lipstick Red A lumayan lah... tapi emang kita harus sering2 touch up sihh.

#udah gitu ajah 
#capek
#RedALipstick

Crossdressing

Hey guys... these Ikemen bellow do crossdress :3

I dont even know them japanese cultures... What’s with them? Are they insane? :v

Do they look more cute? Or.... nope? You, yourself decide!

1. Hideaki Takizawa

Well, sebagai perempuan saya merasa ini ga oke... this.. asdfgejgjyg I am so done :v karena memang cantikan dia kemana-mana :'v. si Hideaki ini ga dandan juga uda cantik ya kakak... kawaii...

pernah liat dorama nya dia pas jaman saya SD, dulu tayang di Indosiar senin-jumat setiap sore, tapi lupa judulnya apa, pokoknya ceritanya dia punya ibu tiri? atau siapanya ya? agak lupa sih... nah ibunya ini jadi pembaca berita di tv, setiap dia siaran ratingnya pasti tinggi... cuman itu sih yang saya ingat, apa ya kira2 judulnya? #mikir keras

2. Kamenashi Kazuya

Orang ini di sebut-sebut mirip Takeru Sato... atau dibilang versi sempurnanya Takeru Sato :v hellow kakak..., tapi menurut saya enggak tuh, beda lah...

btw dandanan nya mengingatkan saya sama bibi Lung nya Yoko :3

3. Takeru Sato

Cowok ini disebut-sebut sukses berat memerankan Kenshin Himura dan kenyataannya memang begitu... tetapi entah kenapa setelah saya nonton Princess Princess D yang di perankan sama dia kok jadinya kadar ke kerenan nya take chan ini agak berkurang gitu yah di mata saya :v

4. Baba Ryoma

Saya ga nyangka Baba chan ini pernah pake rok, padahal menurut saya orang ini macho bgt loh... I mean.. look at him! strong jaw, his apperance look boyish, pokoknya ga ada bakat cantik yah?... tapi ternyata... #asudahlah 

 

5. Hirata Yuichiro

Jujur saya gak tau  sama cowok ini, taunya dia pas di acara nico-nico apa gitu... acara yang ada Takiguchi, Hamao, dan Yuta :v #gaje

6. Ray Fujita

Ray kun adalah seorang penyanyi dan aktor, dia juga salah satu pemeran Princess Princess D selain Takeru Sato #udah gitu ajah :v

 

7. Kyosuke Hamao

Jiahh orang ini lagi... Sebenernya dia enggak crossdress ajah udah cewek banget kelakuannya, itu maksudnya apa coba di kucir di depan? kan gaje bgt. kakak :v

 

8. Yukito Nishii

Yuki chan adalah pemeran Shuya Watanabe di film Confession itu... iyah yang jadi abg Psycopath ituh... wow such a kid.. :v